It's hit time for me to make some changes in my life. While parts of my life are amazing, other more important parts are not.
You see, I love my job. It's amazing. I'm good at what I do, and my abilities and knowledge is appreciated and acknowledged by my managers and my coworkers. I love that. I've never had a job where I've felt as accepted as I do, nor have I ever felt like I belong the way I do now. I've made some incredible friends and I have no intention of leaving anytime soon.
In my personal life, things are good as well. While I still don't date much, I have some amazing, incredible friends who I know are always there for me. My family are all wonderful and supportive. I have a lot of people who have always been there and helped me get where I am today. I'm strong and happy and I wouldn't be where I am without everyone.
However, it's my church life that is struggling. I love my church and I believe wholeheartedly in it. I never would have survived my divorce without the blessings that come from this truly amazing religion, nor would I have been able to remain strong and resist going back when it felt like the only person who wanted me was him. Being Mormon is not easy. It comes with sacrifices of the world and sometimes those weigh heavily, but in the end, at least to me, they are worth it. The problem I'm facing now is figuring out which ward to go to. I no longer feel like I should be attending the ward I've been going to. I have no desire to go back. Yes, I will admit that at least half of what I'm feeling is because of what happened with my friend, but the other half feels like I'm not finding what I need to find where I'm at. The problem is finding out where I need to go. It's gotten to a point where if I don't have an idea on what ward to go to, I just don't go. That needs to stop. But I'm just so lost at where I should be, I don't know what to do.
Anyways, that's where I'm at right now. A little lost and confused, but for the most part... I'm very happy with how things are going in my life. I'm actually starting to enjoy being single, and not feeling the pressure of needing to be married. That's something I never thought was going to happen!
Anyways, I hope everyone has a great Thanksgiving! I'm excited for the day off! :)
