If I were given the choice to go back to a year ago and do things differently, I would never take it. I've made a lot of decisions that a lot of people would (and have) judge me for. It may not be acceptable in society. But that's ok. I've lost three best friends, and in return I've gained the love of my life, and I would choose him 1000x's over friends who choose to turn their backs on me. I'm happy. That's all that matters.