5 months later

It has officially been 5 months since I left Montana. Strange how time flies. I finally feel like everything is lifting and the dark clouds are going away. It feels amazing and free. Will is still around in a way. He calls every single day and still begs me to come back, but I don't want to. I'm finally to a point where I don't have to remind myself why I shouldn't, because I just plain do not want to go back! I'm finally over him. I'm not in love with him anymore (and this time I'm sure. I'm not just saying it to try and make myself believe it... I actually mean it!). I love him for who he is and the part in my life that he played and I'd never take the last 3 years of my life back for anything, but I'm ready to move on! I feel like my "pursuit of happyness" has headed down a good, happy road.

I'm still at the theater, but I'm ready to move on there too. I took the job because I needed something that was easy while I sorted out my life. I'm ready now for more and so I have started the job hunt for something different. The theater is great, and I'll probably stay on one day a week, or on call, just to keep my movie benefits, but I'm ready for a full time adult job.

I finally got to see Twilight... and I've seen it 4 times, and I'm planning to go Monday to see it my 5th. I love it SOO much and really think they did a fantastic job with what they had to work with. I have no real complaints with it, and will probably continue to see it as long as my theater has it. (I see it for free, so it's not like I'm spending a whole lot of money on it!) :) If anyone wants to see it, let me know and I will take you!

I'm almost finished with this semester of school which is fantastic. After this semester, I will only have 13 credits left until my associates degree, so as long as everything works out, I will be finished in May. I don't know if I'll go on for my bachelors yet, I may need to take a break but I'm happy that I will at least be finished with the hard stuff.

I'm getting a calling in my ward for church which is fantastic! I haven't had a calling in over 4 years so I'm ecstatic. I'm going to be the Young Single Adult Representative for my ward, which means I will be in charge of letting all of the 18-30 year olds in my ward know when activities are, and keep up to date with everyone. I think it will give me a good opportunity to be able to meet a lot of people because I will have to go to stake meetings and meet other people, as well as attend all the activities!

As far as boys go, I haven't really been dating at all. There is a guy I work with that I'm kinda attracted to, but I'm trying to avoid dating anyone from the theater (we know what happened the last time I did that). I'm also struggling with some overpowering chemestry from a friend of mine. We've been friends for years and we have some excessive chemestry, but I don't know if I want it to go anywhere. So far, we've kept it in the "friends" boundary lines, but we'll see! :)

Thanksgiving was ok. I had dinner with my family and grandparents (my first real Thanksgiving dinner in 4 years!!!) which was fabulous. But I had to work that night, and well let's just say that people are mean on Thanksgiving!!! Wow!

Anyways, there's an update on my life so far. I hope everyone is doing well!!!!!